You are not alone

Micheal Jackson. A singer I don't like.
But I love his few song.
I cry for it. So sad when I heard those song.
A tallent guy has gone forever.
Haiz... When is my turn to die?
I feel so useless live in this world,
but I know commit sucide is not gd..
And I try before just lucky I din really kill myself.
Why I can't live happily like others and don't think so much.

Today I saw a fren blog,
I would like to say this here,
若生命等于灿然，我愿意用我的快乐换走你的寂寞。我宁愿我寂寞，也不愿看你不开心。
I really dun wan to fight, I know I still love him.. BUT I dun wan he unhappy because of me.
I know I 'm stupid but no one is clever in love right.

You are not alone, Frm Michael Jackson.
Yea, I'm not alone. =)

June

I'm in college now and I'm writing this while waiting others wake up.
Special post for One of my special friend, June.
Today is her big day and she now same age with me, 19 this year.
She not my 1st friend in Taylors but she is my 2nd friend...
And the longest friend in Taylors Business School.
I know her 1st day in Foundation Orientation Week and
I'm glad that she same class with me.
She is a very kind, cute, funny girl.
She do help me a lot in my study and everything.
I'm so lucky have her always help me and be with me when I'm in trouble.
Thanks for everything, darling.
I love you always and Friend forever.
Understand that one day we have to seperate in different corner in the world,
But then...
Just wanna told you that no matter where are you,
The deepest greeting from my heart will delivered to you in the rest of your birthday.
Happy 19th birthday!

Haha..So sorry because of exam we not yet prepared ur birthday celebration and present. But then belated birthday celebration in Genting yea. Wait for it, k... =)

Dun worry, no matter how poor am I, Ur present sure have de... But have to wait la..Wakaka..

Last but not least, wish you always happy and pretty. Hope you found your happiness soon. God bless you.

Zzz

So long I din updates here..
I think more than a month...
I dunno why I start blogging..
Can't find any reason why I no blogging recently..
Just now i read a fren blog...
I know and understand,
My face look like easy to fool...
Ya.. play my feeling is fun...
Haiz.. Feel so wanna cry la...
Wat happen to me?
I got do anything wrong?
Why hurt me one by one?
Luckily now i'm stronger...
I understand that this all is not true...
So I din put much feeling and hope in it...
I think not even feeling and hope, my heart ard close...
Lonely, so look for me?
Haha..Funny, I also lonely lo, means I also need to look for you?
Fuck off pls...
Haiz.. What wrong with me...
Why wanna angry?
Zzz, fucking angry la....
The anger just can't control.. Not under my control.. And cheer that i din accept it!
I'm lucky... Can't imagine if i accept it... Sure become a big joke for others...

Game Over

The games alrd end 2 week ago...
Long time didn't updates here..
I dunno why.. Maybe I lazy to blog anymore..
But still write out all this now..
Ya.. I am very sad and unhappy..
I miss him so much..
I can't kiss and hug him anymore...
Sad.. but I know everything is over..
Why can't he love me because i love him?
Oh, That's the end of the story when he not love me.
He will be history of mine..

So Sad when you can;t get someone u love beside you forever.
I'm still waiting for my Mr. Right...

Erm.... No reason..

I just miss him...
I know we only can be friend...
I still wanna continue the game...
Maybe accidently got feeling jor...
Hope and hope i can escape from him..
But hope and hope i can get him too..
The ending nobody will know..
But i can predict... He won't be mine, cuz he alrd have someone.

Dun ask me why do so, feeling sometimes can't control...
I dun wan be a third party, but feel like wanna do now..
Just for a moment... I think maybe is ok...
The feel just great... Miss it and wish to have it again..
God.. Teach me what to do.. Dun tell me this is wrong, cuz lost control.

I just miss his *K & H* right now... So sweet...

Just 4 month

Life never change without you,
Understand that my life have no change.
Yesterday i dream of Xx talk back to me.
Just talk a little bit to me, like wat happen in the 1st time we met.
I know that is the hints told me,
We never speak again to each others.
I'm sad.. But what to do..
I lost a best fren..
Again.. I gonna lost one soon...
People like to enjoy life with me with the word buddy..
K.. I got feel.. So what..
I not dare to like him or even love him..
I love myself more... I can't make any promise to anyone..
That is really bad.. But I just can't change it..
I'm a super emo person but everyone will think i'm super happy person..
I'm gifted with talkative person..
Ya.. I can talk in any situation..
Some will think i'm nice.. Some will think i'm irretating..
I just can't talk in my class..
Bcuz i'm afraid everyone shoot me again like wat happen in my foundation moment..
I dun mind fren with who.. I dun mind group wit who..
As long as give me a peaceful life..
Expecially now i still din't escape the faith same class wit chee nien.. and..
Nvm... Just one sem.. I told myself just 4 month.. Is very easy to pass the time..

Games

I just feel so wanna escape.
I scare samething will happen again,
how many times of pain i can cure myself.
We just can't open our mouth and say Hi.
I feel he like me. But that is not true right.
I' m playing fire.

Emoing...
Feel so wanna cry, but still can smile.
I know myself can laugh when i feel very sad.
I never show my angry face to anyone.
Tam... I'm a girl very easy to tam and jsut neeed tam.
Every1 enjoy together wit me, but the status always just a buddy.
Enough, here is dangerous again.
Try to stop when that is the chance for u to stop.