Countdown for the Christmas

Merry Christmas.. Everyone..
I dunno what I expect for the Christmas..
But I just feel my heart have lose something that i din realize..
Life? Again.. I think this is life..
I will celebrate my christmas in Melaka...
Bcuz I'm from Melaka.. Melaka still my lovely hometown...
I dun care what you think about my hometown..
Suck?? or Louzy.. Is ok.. I still proud of it..
I nvr proud with my hometown before i 'm here to study..
Now i realize how warm is my hometown..
Eventhough i dun have homesick problem and love here b4..
But 2 guys make mind change... But this 2 guys not from here neither..
I fall in love with them... Maybe.. I'm not sure...
Now, Not even fren between me and them...
How much can i put down the feeling thru them?
I can't forget the moment together with Xx, I still miss him...
I say I angry him, but the miss are more than the angry..
How can i angry him? Teach me how... Force myself to hate him but still failed..
I wanna find my happinese.. without them..
Of cuz i will feel happy if that day i receive Xx&Ex msg wish me Merry Christmas.
This will be my little wish now...
Hope i can receive their wish on my lovely christmas... I love you! Christmas!

p/s: I will celebrate my Christmas in Purebar... One of the club in Melaka.. Not as great as the Club in KL.. But the best in Melaka..