Pain

Sad things non stop attack me..
What you expect me to be?
Really speechless and disappointed..
What you say b4 was just a fool?
Why I so stupid and believe that?
Oh no.. I realize I really stupid..
I found the time go slow and meaningless...
And I have many things not yet do,
but what I doing now was just sit there and cry...
Really feel so sad and sick of it..
Can you imagine, all the trust have gone,
And I pay for it with my sincere and money and everything..
Really sad and nothing I can say..
I not even know the whole story..
I can't tell what happen..
Can i?
Actually what happen??
Just suddenly a group of fren say hate me..
And another group of fren say away from me..
What the heck... Can let me know the reason 1st...
Why make me like sohai and still trust u guys as best fren?
U know how pain is my heart now..
And how shock I know that from my fren!
OMG.. I intro my fren to u guys is let you all talk bad behind me?

I pain for few day and I still need to act strong to pretend ntg..
Busy of my exam, go out for movie and talk wit everyone like normal.
Can anyone tell me all I know is not true..
Just a joke and a fool..
What you expect me to do???
I really dunno...
Attitude, behaviour...
Bcuz of tis, I cannot have fren..
What is the meaning I continue my life..
I really so disappointed and wanna end it NOW..
But HOW??

The pain can let me feel wanna end my life, imagine how pain was it..
But I try.. I just can't do so... Bcuz I hv to responsible to everyone who care and love me.
WHY??? I din hurt anyone but everyone try to hurt me..
Can I kill all of u or kill myself, so that I no need face it?
Time is the medicine, but the time was just too slow ...
I dunno how long I can tahan the pain...
I scare I really will jump frm the Balcony and end my life..
I just try my best to control myself..

You all wanna laugh just laugh..
You all wanna tease just tease..
I know I deserve it..
Who ask me use my true heart to be ur friend.