Erm.... No reason..

I just miss him...
I know we only can be friend...
I still wanna continue the game...
Maybe accidently got feeling jor...
Hope and hope i can escape from him..
But hope and hope i can get him too..
The ending nobody will know..
But i can predict... He won't be mine, cuz he alrd have someone.

Dun ask me why do so, feeling sometimes can't control...
I dun wan be a third party, but feel like wanna do now..
Just for a moment... I think maybe is ok...
The feel just great... Miss it and wish to have it again..
God.. Teach me what to do.. Dun tell me this is wrong, cuz lost control.

I just miss his *K & H* right now... So sweet...

Just 4 month

Life never change without you,
Understand that my life have no change.
Yesterday i dream of Xx talk back to me.
Just talk a little bit to me, like wat happen in the 1st time we met.
I know that is the hints told me,
We never speak again to each others.
I'm sad.. But what to do..
I lost a best fren..
Again.. I gonna lost one soon...
People like to enjoy life with me with the word buddy..
K.. I got feel.. So what..
I not dare to like him or even love him..
I love myself more... I can't make any promise to anyone..
That is really bad.. But I just can't change it..
I'm a super emo person but everyone will think i'm super happy person..
I'm gifted with talkative person..
Ya.. I can talk in any situation..
Some will think i'm nice.. Some will think i'm irretating..
I just can't talk in my class..
Bcuz i'm afraid everyone shoot me again like wat happen in my foundation moment..
I dun mind fren with who.. I dun mind group wit who..
As long as give me a peaceful life..
Expecially now i still din't escape the faith same class wit chee nien.. and..
Nvm... Just one sem.. I told myself just 4 month.. Is very easy to pass the time..

Games

I just feel so wanna escape.
I scare samething will happen again,
how many times of pain i can cure myself.
We just can't open our mouth and say Hi.
I feel he like me. But that is not true right.
I' m playing fire.

Emoing...
Feel so wanna cry, but still can smile.
I know myself can laugh when i feel very sad.
I never show my angry face to anyone.
Tam... I'm a girl very easy to tam and jsut neeed tam.
Every1 enjoy together wit me, but the status always just a buddy.
Enough, here is dangerous again.
Try to stop when that is the chance for u to stop.

Today is a 1st day

Back to here...
Well.. This blog start when i'm in foundation...
Now i'm a UNISA student..
Times Flies...
I failed my bst, I resit my bst and now alrd 2 week in uni life..
I still in a very blur case..
Wat should I do.. I dunno..
Busy working and study, of cuz still play a lot...
So long i din updated my english blog and i wanna reuse here..
Well.. The reason so simple... I belong to here...

How is my life recently?
Great?Busy?Empty?Unlucky?
Well, recently I dun need my secret anymore to calm me down...
I have a new buddy.. But my old buddies left me...
My english still poor? Ya lo.... That why i'm afriad in UNISA now...
Back to the begining, Tis wat i want?
No... Just continue the life i have now...
Hard to go back to 18.. I'm alrd 19....

I'm just 19, i gone thru many things and i know that still a lot of things wait for me...
I'm stilll a single...
What wrong if i'm still a single??
I just dun wanna be single..
Many things that fren can't do, parents can't do,
Only HIM will do...
Ya la.. I know la.. Study 1st ma.. But i alrd consider adult jor..
What wrong if now i got a boy friend or not a virgin?
Ok.. I know i not dare... So be a virgin lo.. (What can i do?)
Virgin also not bad ma.. At least ppl will think you are innocent...
Ya lo... That is me... Innocent... Haha...

Last but not least, Happy 19 years old...
Soon will be 20 Jor... Sad...