History For My Life!

I Love You at this moment.

2011-11-01T15:24:00.003+08:00

I feel I already so long din write somethings here.

Today is the 1st day of November.

I saw and read somethings he wrote last time.

His status, I don't really bother.

But now is too late for me to read and think.

Maybe he just a normal guy with maturity of 22.

But I tot he is mature enough.

My heart is gone.

Still with him,

but nothing I can do, he already meet someone he want.

I'm sad, why I'm not the one he want.

Maybe I'm just nobody want.

When I read Simon blog,

I feel sad when he say he is sad.

He dump by a girl he love so much.

Just like last year he dump me and I feel so sad.

I sad he never put me inside his heart,

he never appreciate me, he never look at me as who am I.

I'm like one of the those girl outside,

Nobody appreciate me b4.

Maybe he is the only one who appreciate me,

But I already let him go.

My love just begin,

And you want me to end now.

That's so cruel to me.

God, can you pls send him back to me?

I wish I can have him until I boring.

However, I believe God send him to me must be a reason.

Want him to learn or want me to learn, how to appreciate someone.

Black is Back with Arthur's Day 2011

2011-09-17T17:19:00.004+08:00

What you plan to do at this coming Saturday night?

With

As a beer lover and party animal, how can I missed out the grand party in this September.
All I need just a party that can make me crazy all night long and I found it~ Arthur's Day. Thanks to Guinness, this is a party I'm waiting for a year!

Now I just need a pair of ticket and all I want is party with all the hottest guys and girls.

23rd September 2011, at Speed City KL, Selangor Turf Club, from 6pm onwards...

and Taio Cruz is coming for the party!

What you waiting for? Let's party~

Words

2011-09-14T11:49:00.000+08:00

Where there is a problem, there is a solution.

Dunno how to continue

2011-05-04T14:19:00.001+08:00

Sometimes,
I just don't know why.
My lecturer like to ask me to answer questions.
I know this is good,
but I don't know the answer.
I don't know how I'm gonna pass the exam.
I don't know everything and now already week 9.
Sad, I really failed to be somebody.
I really no aims, no friends, no money, nobody care about me.
Everyday, I'm thinking when is the end of my life?
My parents don't like me, I know that,
My sibling don't like me, I can feel that,
My friends in college don't like me, I can sense that,
I just too cool? Too cold?
Or failed to communication with anyone out there.
Poor communication problem, I facing it and I have no solution.
The world is like so dark and so down.
I got no idea how could I survive in such sitution?

Feel despress when everything i do is failed.

Haiz. Nobody I can blame. T.T

I need help~

2011-04-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

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So sad when No time

2011-04-18T12:38:00.003+08:00

When you need to race with time, There is no time to let you think about anythings. I really can't see my future. But I know I need to be hardworking to grab it.

I'm not ready

2011-03-06T00:07:00.001+08:00

Why don't give you and me know each other better?

Just need 3more months, maybe you will fall to me.

I learn my lesson everytime i get hurt.

Be ready, get ready for every unexpected still not enough.

Miss someone is happy~

2011-03-01T20:28:00.001+08:00

I saw a girl,

I know I hate to see her.

But I don't care.

I know somethings happen,

I don't bother.

Cuz I wan look forward of my new life.

+U~ New life is waiting for me.

I miss you, because I know bcuz of you,

I know myself better.

Birthday

2011-02-22T23:39:00.001+08:00

Just wanna wish you,

Happy birthday yea~

But I will wish you in my heart and miss you in my heart.

Respect.

This is the present frm me. =)

Just miss you

2011-01-09T21:02:00.002+08:00

Is my life~

Well, I can choose what I wanna be right?

I really dunno what I wanna be,

I just know thinking of you is out of my control.

I miss you.

I really really miss you.

I'm looking for someone can replace you.

I'm bored.

I'm lonely.

I'm lazy.

Where are you?

I just want to be ur secret admire.

FML

2011-01-06T22:56:00.002+08:00

Today I'm like whole day thinking of you.

FML.

You keep on come to my mind for what,

You alrd leave, so I shouldn't remember you.

T.T

So sad you know, when you do so to me.

I think there is some misunderstanding between us.

Haiz... Why I think of you whole day?

No mood.

2011-01-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

Haiz.

Why.

I just hate to see this.

But why I go see.

I feel so sad lo.

Oh why? Sienz.

Can I totally forget what happen?

Reason that I dunno

2011-01-04T22:46:00.003+08:00

Everything happen for a reason, but I dunno the reason and I wish I can know the reason. Tears is coming out because I really dunno until I feel so lost and no one I can tell. I can't be strong this time because I'm tired to be strong, just need a hug and shoulder and it become so hard to get it when I learn to be strong that moment. It is sad more than hurt.

I wish I will be fine after crying~

Oh no, is 2011

2011-01-02T20:44:00.002+08:00

Is 2011.

Ok. I'm fine.

I have to start working~

Oh what?

I have to start working and I actually not plan to work~

Nervous and Wish me good luck~

The wonderful things is I didn't apply for the job and I got the job~

Thx my dear friend for helping me ask around.

2011, please God~

I need accompany by someone,

because my days getting boring and lifeless~

I wish I can met him again,

And tell him.

Hey, you know what? I want to know the reason,

Why you just disappear like that?

I miss you.

Anythings la...

New life, new goals, new guy.

All the best to me and everyone~

From God. =)

looking forward

2010-12-28T16:42:00.003+08:00

It is almost end of 2010~

Bring my love to my next Journey,

I never thought I will be single again in 2010.

But end up I'm still the same.

Look for better future. =)

I wish 2011 have new life n meet new peoples.

I got new perfumes Dior forever and ever as my 21 years old birthday gift~

Thanks mummy~ Muack Muack~

I wish I have a very warm and sweet, suprising 21th birthday.

Life should look forward, learn from the past, be better in the future. =)

What a big joke?

2010-12-19T20:28:00.003+08:00

1 hour ago,

I saw something.

I'm been asking who am I?

I'm lost the way because of myself or because of you?

Game, this isn't a nice game.

I hate I'm the one who lose in the game.

I'm just somebody pass by in your life,

But there is a scar forever in my heart.

I swear, I'm sincere to everyone every time.

What I get was just a big joke telling me,

Hey, why you so idiot?

I been asking myself so many times.

Why I always know the ending but I still do it.

Why can't I learn from the mistake,

Why can't I learn from a lesson.

Woman's heart is like a candle.

A little bit of fire, the heart will burn totally and left nothing.

Why just so hard forget you are my past?

Or I just try to remember every single details of you,

because I know you will be my memory forever.

I'm been waiting for the best and go through the worst to get the best.

Do I learn my lesson this time?

Seriously, I don't think so.

Future

2010-12-16T01:07:00.002+08:00

I'm the one who say wanna leave 1st,

But I hate you leave 1st b4 I leave.

Yer.... What's happen now??

Narnia, OMG~

Childish movie.

But I love the moral value.

Be myself.

I will be more and more pretty in the future.

Looking forward~

Friends

2010-12-10T12:34:00.001+08:00

I really so disappointed.

Almost 11years friend,

And What I get is criticism.

Oh yea, you so smart, Keep it up~

I don't think in the future I will need your single help.

What is friend means for you?

Where you go?

2010-11-23T01:41:00.001+08:00

Where you go?

You really gone?

I so miss you.

Lost every news of you.

Can I call you?

I can't find any reason talk to you.

Oh, I feel so sad, pls dun go~

Argh, where you go?

@.@

2010-11-21T19:00:00.001+08:00

Do I really care？

Yes, I do.

@.@

Leaving

2010-11-20T22:51:00.001+08:00

I really don't know why I feel so suck of life right now.

I really feel so hurt.

I want to be invisible.

Nobody can find me,

Nobody know where I go.

And Everyone assume I die.

I will be very happy.

Let's me away from all the unhappy.

Bye Bye, I'm leaving the world now.

+U

2010-11-20T02:14:00.001+08:00

New day.

Look forward.

Don't always can say but cannot do.

I can do it~

Waiting for impossible.

Give me your heart

2010-11-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

I feel I a bit funny and stupid.

Well, I angry him for what?

The more I hate him,

The more I love him,

The more I anfry him,

The more I love him.

Ya la ya la.

I admit that I a bit small gas lo.

=.=

I love you, babe. =)

Pls choi me back la.

I not dare to choi you.

Bcuz I scare to know that you don't like me.

Haiz. Can you fall for me?

Why I will fall for you?

I also dunno why.

You just look so cute,

I just feel so comfortable when you are beside me.

Ish, I'm really a girl who love the guy torture me.

If he everyday find me, bla bla bla.

I din feel anything.

If one day he so cold to me.

I will fall for him.

Pray hard to god,

Give your heart to me for 1 year.

I will satisfy for it. =)

*Dream on*

I hate you

2010-11-16T23:52:00.003+08:00

I really angry you.

I really hate you.

Why you want treat me like that.

I feel myself now,

I'm grass let you step,

I'm a rubbish let you throw.

I totally disappointed with you.

When you want me,

Oh yea, you are so nice to me.

When you finish using me,

Oh yea, I feel you are such a jerk la!

Do you treat friend in that way too?

I thought we will be closer than friend.

I don't think you will do so to a friends.

I totally hate myself,

If I have no feel to you,

I won't so angry right now.

If I no feel to you,

I won't so sad right now.

Oh. I feel so hurt right now.

Why I met you in my life.

Before that, my life was so wonderful.

I hate you.

But I know I hate you because I love you more.

Hate you

2010-11-15T12:16:00.004+08:00

5 more years to realize my dream.

Can't wait for it,

Wait the exam is over.

I will draw a line with you.

Oh ya, I hate the status you write,

Indirectly, I feel that you are saying me.

I won't go ask,

Keep my pride~

I just feel myself like an idiot,

Stay cool and let you go.

I'm not a player,

But I won't get hurt.

I trust that there is another you waiting for me.

Appreciate me,

You will know how beautiful am I.

After one week

2010-11-11T13:17:00.003+08:00

The things I scare the most,

You will forget me.

I really don't like the holiday.

11days, Will you forget me after that?

I really don't like the distance between me and you.

We alrd so close, but why the heart still so far?

Be a man, be responsible?

Can I ask for this?

I have no right to ask for anythings.

I know the rules of game,

But still If let me choose again.

I will choose the same road.

This is the way I love you.

I want to be yours, and I want you to be mine.

Surprise

2010-11-10T10:37:00.003+08:00

No need worry so much,

Because now I'm not the controller of the game.

So waiting for the next.

Too bad la, I start like to be surprise in this way.

No matter what will happen,

I'm be ready to accept it.

I will accept it with a big smile.

Dream on~

Surprise, when I think it is impossible,

and it happen,

Oh yea, this will be surprise in my life. ^_-

If

2010-11-07T22:37:00.003+08:00

The feel is so weird.

But it is so sweet.

And it make me feel like wanna listen to him.

Oh yes, he is so responsible.

Just a bit cannot accept his past.

If I really can get him,

Wa, that will be great.

Dream on~

071110

2010-11-07T11:49:00.001+08:00

The pain remind me.

The things is happen.

But I choose to escape.

Bcuz I dun wan give any stress to him.

Let it be~

25years old

2010-11-05T23:35:00.001+08:00

I want LV~

I want Burberry~

I want Coach~

I want Gucci~

I want Prada~

All this I wish I can have before 25 years old~

*Dreaming*

Wakaka~

HuHuHu

2010-11-02T11:30:00.001+08:00

Hehe.

Give up.

Happy?

Sad?

Moody?

Hooray.

I don't care.

Hate me?

I'm like that.

Coffee, tea or me?

Waiting for impossible.

Coffee without sugar

2010-10-20T10:35:00.003+08:00

This is the road I choose.

I choose to ignore my feeling.

I don't want to think too much again.

Phobia~

I'm jealous you, but I understand.

When a guy really treat you so good.

You will found somethings is lost.

That why, my dear.

You are lost.

Grab it when everything is settle down.

Nobody will waste time doing the things without objective.

And yet, what all this means.

When everything stop suddenly?

I'm confusing.

I'm lost too.

I miss him.

I really scare myself get used to somethings.

It always make me lost when it suddenly stop.

I really don't like somethings like that.

Sugar, always sweet.

But the pay is bitter.

Coffee without sugar.

This is still my favorite.

Milk can replace all the sugar.

It is not sweet but healthy.

I won't grab you.

I will let you go, if you choose to go.

All my ex, I treat them the same way,

So, I will treat you in the same way.

Never say out, I miss you.

Only I know that I accidently let you live in my heart.

Lucky I just give you a small house.

It won't hurt me if the house collapse.

Alone

2010-10-15T23:02:00.005+08:00

It have been so long,

I never come across this issue.

This is not a big issue,

But I found something different between me and him.

Shouldn't kiss.

Shouldn't I know so much.

Does he is a good guy?

Does it matter?

I just wish I can found someone really care about me.

I really wish someone really treat me good.

It is so hard for me.

Why it is so hard for me to really start a relationship.

I really so bad?

Am I look so worse?

I don't think what james tell me is true.

I'm a marketer, I should trust what I observe,

I shouldn't trust the feeling.

Yet, I don't know what feeling is that.

Is afraid, but wish to be winner at last.

It is terrible. I really scare nobody will appreciate me.

I scare I have been forgotten.

God, do you still remember me?

You forget to give me somethings every 20 years old girl need it.

I'm so envy, when see the girls same age with me have boyfriend.

At least, they know themselves isn't live alone in this world.

What can really friends give to us?

What can we really get from family?

Need, from the guy I love. I need it.

I need kiss, I need hug, I need accompany,

I feel dry, I feel lonely. I need someone be with me.

I don't want to feel myself is living alone.

Stop telling me that, I'm downgrade myself.

Nobody got the right to comment on my choice.

Lalala

2010-10-12T20:06:00.001+08:00

This is life.

The road not taken.

Why, because it just so so..

I have no comment.

Hehe.. I win her at last??

Am I??

Just a post

2010-10-01T12:13:00.002+08:00

I have been so long never update this blog.

I not really like this blog anymore.

Bcuz history for my life,

10million words I dun think can really complete my story for this year.

Yed nite, I dream of him again.

I'm so sad again about the dream and,

I realize I dun like he ignore me.

I can still my heart is broken when he saw me and he walk away.

He didn't say hi to me, or smile to me.

Am I an alien for him?

I wonder, is it totally no feeling to me b4?

A guy I think I love the most,

Totally Ignore me.

Why scare of me?

This is a question I ask for so long.

And I dunno what is the answer.

Just like Lee Hom new song?

Is it?

Haiz.. I love you and U do so to me.

I really feel so sad.

I'm sry, I can't share my love to anyone anymore.

The hurt is too deep to me.

Deng

2010-04-14T19:07:00.001+08:00

Today I scold by a fren terrible.

Can u imagine the feel.

I hv ntg to say about her.

Bcuz Never thaught she will scold me bcuz of tat.

So small things and she scold me till like a dog!

Wow, tat's so great. This so called fren.

Is my false that I forget to bring the racket to sch,

But who will remember to bring if no one remind me?

Tat's so unusual to bring racket to sch..

And I'm in a rush, I almost din manage to get into the bus.

I'm really sad n angry bout it!

I din owe u anythings...

CIBAI!

So emo!

2010-04-13T19:28:00.002+08:00

Haiz...

How?

I dunno.

Same things will happen again.

I'm so lonely!

I'm so boring!

I feel wanna Die jor!

20 20 20 20 20...

Really so worse about 20 if no fren!

Deng! I wan find someone really I like to mix with!

No bf i dun mind, no fren I will die...

Wanna go eat also dunno wanna call who!

Deng!

Feeling fault

2010-03-26T00:34:00.001+08:00

Everything come to the end.

Regret can't do anything.

I hope really like wat u say,

We still best fren.

But I know, not easy.

Record for this special moment

2010-03-11T19:32:00.002+08:00

I love you without any reason,
I asking myself,
What's so great about you?
I just miss you all the time,
Feel safe when together with you,
Always can't wait to see you,
Feel so happy when together with you,
Even you are sitting there quietly,
My heartbeat never stop getting faster for it,
You just look cute with you small eyes.
Nothing special about you, but you are special to me.
I love you without a reason, just feel so wanna be with you.
I can't promise you anything in the future,
And I know you can't promise me anything in my future,
But I so wish to have you in my future.
Not only best friend,
Cuz I can't stop myself thinking of kissing you n hugging you.
The feeling is weird, maybe ridiculous for you,
But is true cuz I can feel it is strong n sweet.

Dear, can we try together?
Dun afraid about the future,
Dun worry you will hurt me,
Dun care what you can give me,
Dun care you no feeling with me right now,
Cuz I believe i can make you love me than before,
Dear, Just come on, dun be afraid, let's us try together.
No need to care how long can we together,
One day also will be memorable for me.
Give you a chance n give me a chance to prove my feeling is true.
Dun reject me, pls... I beg you, you are the 1st guy I feel so wanna be with you.

There are billion of words I want to tell you,
But before i tell you, you alrd reject me.
Be best friend is cruel for me.

I dun care you are bad guy or I'm a good and nice girl,
I dun care I can find a better guy or rich guy in my future,
I just want you in this moment.
Cuz they can't give me the feeling that you give.
Tonight I feel so wanna hold your hand and hug you tightly.
Bcuz I'm tired with everything, I'm lonely inside my soul.
Let me love you as much as I can,
Love is something incredible, it will make my soul rich with happiness.

I love you.

Alone.

2010-01-24T20:25:00.001+08:00

Dream what you dare to dream,
Go where you want to go,
Be what you want to be,
Life.

1501210

2010-01-15T17:13:00.001+08:00

I'm back from the holiday and I feel very tired now.
Oh, it is really a great trip..
I have make few decision now.
The feel is damn gd..

Fuck off la you!
Hurt me so much!
I won't put in heart but I will always remember the lesson!

Settle and fine now!

2010-01-09T18:14:00.003+08:00

Hoo~ Luckily everything is clear and settle...
But i alrd a bit regret...
Now I dunno what to do..
If suddenly I change my mind,
The things will be more terrible...
Sorry, I hv to continue...
I dun care happy or unhappy..
Bcuz I have no choice now.
Don't care what others wanna say about me.
I know what I'm doing.
I know is time for me to change.
Just hope the better time will come.
I have no choice, forgive me.

Sorry, I know I'm not important.
But this time, I wish u guys will respect me.
What I can help, I will try my best to help.
I treat you as fren, you treat me as what no longer important bcuz I dun care!
In front act so nice to me, but behind say hate me.
This so cruel when I know it, but suprise I dun have any feeling about it...

20years old, is time to think mature.

Haiz~

2010-01-09T11:54:00.003+08:00

Wat u want from me!
I alrd say nicely...
Why u wan keep thinking i'm talking bad about u?
Do u think i like to talk bad about my best fren?
Who is the Jacky you talking about?
Justin, i din even contact with him,
How I talk bad about u to him!

I dun wan celebrate my birthday!
I dun wan anythings!
I want my friendship only...
Can?
Hv you think b4 my feeling when you say out the words?
The words hurt me!
I din make the things complicated!

Pain

2009-11-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

Sad things non stop attack me..
What you expect me to be?
Really speechless and disappointed..
What you say b4 was just a fool?
Why I so stupid and believe that?
Oh no.. I realize I really stupid..
I found the time go slow and meaningless...
And I have many things not yet do,
but what I doing now was just sit there and cry...
Really feel so sad and sick of it..
Can you imagine, all the trust have gone,
And I pay for it with my sincere and money and everything..
Really sad and nothing I can say..
I not even know the whole story..
I can't tell what happen..
Can i?
Actually what happen??
Just suddenly a group of fren say hate me..
And another group of fren say away from me..
What the heck... Can let me know the reason 1st...
Why make me like sohai and still trust u guys as best fren?
U know how pain is my heart now..
And how shock I know that from my fren!
OMG.. I intro my fren to u guys is let you all talk bad behind me?

I pain for few day and I still need to act strong to pretend ntg..
Busy of my exam, go out for movie and talk wit everyone like normal.
Can anyone tell me all I know is not true..
Just a joke and a fool..
What you expect me to do???
I really dunno...
Attitude, behaviour...
Bcuz of tis, I cannot have fren..
What is the meaning I continue my life..
I really so disappointed and wanna end it NOW..
But HOW??

The pain can let me feel wanna end my life, imagine how pain was it..
But I try.. I just can't do so... Bcuz I hv to responsible to everyone who care and love me.
WHY??? I din hurt anyone but everyone try to hurt me..
Can I kill all of u or kill myself, so that I no need face it?
Time is the medicine, but the time was just too slow ...
I dunno how long I can tahan the pain...
I scare I really will jump frm the Balcony and end my life..
I just try my best to control myself..

You all wanna laugh just laugh..
You all wanna tease just tease..
I know I deserve it..
Who ask me use my true heart to be ur friend.

Tata

2009-11-20T13:44:00.002+08:00

I worry..
I'm unhappy..
And I dun care about it..
Used to it and realize I have try my best..
Everything just dun want care anymore..

Friendship, love,
brothers, sisters,
I lost everything.
But at least I know why I lost it.

Good bye everything,
If can, I will choose to leave,
If can, I will choose to end.
But I can't, bcuz my life is given by my parents.
Unless my parents told me, If u really unhappy,
Just end ur life..
And this time is the 1st time I feel so wanna end it.
Bcuz the hurt is unexpected painful.

If really treat you as fren, won't treat you like tat.
Dun be stupid still think that they are nice and good.
Dun be so innocent and naive.
All is just bullshit and wasted.
This so called friendship but actually I'm just a tools.
Finish using, just say tata and throw u away.
The lost of money is means nothing but the most painful is I lost trust on ppl.
No more trust anyone and sincere to anyone.

"If you sincere to them, they will feel it... " This all just bullshit... Bcuz of too honest and sincere, what I get back was just hurt and talk bad behind me...

I hate you all bcuz fooling my feeling and trust.
I'm just a girl, what you expected me to be? Become so fake like you guys!

Raining day

2009-11-05T01:44:00.003+08:00

Today I walk under the rain,
Dun misunderstand me wanna be cool,
I'm not that free to do such things,
I'm just din bring umbrella and the rain come suddenly.
I wish I can go home early, so I din wait for the rain stop.
I'm wet and cold at that time, I really feel lonely.
No more people will sms me ask me how am I.
No more caring and sweet talk to make me warm in the cold weather.
I just miss you badly.

I remember last year, someone fetch me to Sunway Pyramid in this raining weather.
I really appreciate a lot,
I'm just so lucky but I let go my lucky.
No more doing this type of stupid things again.
I must appreciate everything given.
Thx a lot, you will always be my best memories.

What to do, I hurt so many people before,
Is time to let others hurt me again.
1 months, Still the same things happen.
Thinking after one month maybe will be better.
But now what can I see is impossible.
Pray to god, you all fine and happy.
I love you, but I know what I want you can't give me.

A friend say, he like raining because no one can see his tear in the rain.
Dun give up, my dear. You will be fine soon.
Just like me.. I'm getting better and better.
One day, I will be happy and sweet.

Actually I alrd write all this in chinese, rewrite again. Only realize, the feeling is different alrd... I really can't just straight away translate it. No meaning if I choose not to rewrite.

Happy Halloween

2009-10-31T10:00:00.002+08:00

Less and less missing him,
I know I will end it very fast,
Laugh at myself missing him for no reason.
Well, I really like him but I think I will give up him,
Because I feel that he really not good at all.
Maybe few years later we have fate to meet again,
Everythings just let god decide.

Halloween, But I dun hv any party.
I have dinner in Melaka,
I miss out all the party invite by friends.
Pretty sad, but this worth..
I'm just 19... But my uncle alrd 70..
He left not much time to celebrate his birthday.
I still got many years for Halloween Party.

Today I gonna cut my hair.
Thinking what will it be after cutting,
I hv no idea on my new hairstyle,
Because I decide leave it to my hairstylist.
I hope this hairstylist will give me a pretty look.

Watching Little Nyonnya recently,
Really nice drama,
I'm thinking actually I consider half Nyonnya generation.
Because my grandma was Nyonnya just she adopt by Chinese Family,
So we din practise any Nyonnya Culture.
But she used to wear Sarong and making nice Sambal when she still alive.
That why I'm look like a Malay girl and many people tot I'm mix.

No title

2009-10-28T15:12:00.003+08:00

Everything is over.
Look for the better future.
I love my life recently.
I realize sometimes cannot force us to do something we dun like.

My life is great.
Yam cha, clubbing, shopping non stop.
No financial problem.

Quattro, Velvet, Zouk, Poppy, Maison,
All I wan to go last year,
Now all I go b4 alrd.
What I need summore?
I know If he choose me, I will be happy.

I no more sad for him,
I single and available.
I won't take others boy friends.

Look for more healthy life and happy life.

Dream

2009-10-21T20:27:00.002+08:00

Thinking of doing somethings meaningful...
I realize I have a lot of dreams, bcuz I love dreaming.
After that day, I totally dun wan care it anymore.
But I know I care bcuz I keep mention that I dun care.
If you dun care, you won't mention it.
That's why I say "I dun care".
One day I will leave here, go to a place to start everything over again.
I feel tired lo.
Why?

The places I want to travel,
Taiwan,
Japan,
Langkawi,
Pulau Redang,
Bangkok,
Singapore,
Canada,
Vietnam,
UK,
Korea,
USA,
Australia,
England.

Oh no, I got so many places wanna go!
I wish I can go with my dear.
But Is it single will be more easier?

I have a dream.

Just like you without a reason

2009-09-26T10:29:00.003+08:00

'Dream is something incredible?'
I dream of him, means something?
I dunno.... Inside my heart, that is something..
Miracle? Question?

Is time to wake up from my dream.
I ignore it totally, at least I try to do so.
We still young.
What I need is freedom too.
No emo,
No feeling,
All about freedom.

When that is the time to stop,
We must stop.
Be happy and nobody know what you think inside ur heart.

The road you choose, you have to finish it.
This is your road, no regret.
My world left me alone to wait for another partner.

If love someone need a reason, the reason will be,
'I love you because of your taste!'
When the feeling is there, everything will be reason.

Holiday

2009-09-19T18:04:00.002+08:00

"I miss him wor, how?"
"Call him lor!"
“Cannot wor..."
"Then wat u wan?"
"Say say only ma."
Swt in bao bei's head immediately...
I miss him just say say only la... Din feel emo at all lo..

I dunno why miss him o?
How?
I really dunno ler...
Go Ipoh tomorrow,
I'm so happy and excited!

Happy holiday, guys!
I will miss you lo, June...
Dun worry!

The life with You is perfect.
The life without You is Free.
Nobody want me, I feel sad, But won't give to be better.

Oh No=(

2009-09-15T19:17:00.002+08:00

Wuhu~ Faster do ur assignment can o not?
Oh... I just not in mood..
Crazy la.. Like tat...
Must finish today no matter how...

Yed nite I can't sleep at all...
Again.. I miss him.. Wtf...
Feel so wanna delete all the memory la...
The things already pass a month and I still miss him..
I dunno I miss him for what..
Just miss the feeling and him...
If I miss a guy like me, or miss a leng zai..
Then I can forgive myself..
But this time I miss a guy dun like me and not a leng zai..
Wa... Speechless...
I have nothing to say.. But soon I will forget him...
Very very fast... I dun wan miss a person like tat..
I hate missing someone...

Clubbing, I one month no clubbing alrd..
Suprise... I now miss it a lot...
I really feel so wanna go clubbing lar...
Next month, promise myself no matter how also must go next month..
Oh no.. I just miss the feel of clubbing...

Now is time to stop, go bath and continue my assignment...
Haha... I'm just so so lazy...
I wan buy that dress next month for clubbing...
I need alcohol and dancing badly...

Yeah, yed I drink Teh ais finally...
Now waiting for my Roti Telur Bawang Besar....

Mamak

2009-09-10T09:37:00.003+08:00

Suddenly, I miss Mamak Stall...
I wan go eat Mamak...
I wan teh ais + Roti telur bawang besar...
This is my favourite....
But I always din order this combination...
Bcuz of I'm on diet...

I want go mamak Yam cha...
Anyone?
Date me pls...
I so free tonight...
I know is Ladies Night...
We still can yam cha...
I dun wan yam cha in Old Town or starbucks anymore...
Expensive and the feeling not tat good...

Haha.... Just now reading someone blog make me feel crazy with Mamak suddenly...
Today Nasi Kandar ler... Ah Jon siew... Faster come makan with me Nasi Kandar lo...
Life can be better when you get the things You crazy over...LOL...

999

2009-09-09T01:10:00.003+08:00

Actually I have nothing to say...
Just feel wanna updates here...
My life currently have nothing to record...
I know my busy life coming soon...
Many assignment due and test coming...
Tomorrow, I will double up my time to do all the things...
I alrd waste 6 weeks...
Haha... Is true that I do nothing in the past 6 weeks...
Until now, I dunno what is the subject I take talking about...
Especially BIS... I skip all the Bis lecture and din focus in Tutorial class...
I think I just go BIS Tutorial class for attendance...
Then the 2nd worse subject is Microecn...
I still dunno what I study...
Bcb, better a bit.. At least I got go thru.. But doesn't means I know..
I have failed in the 1st test.. OMG...
I think the best subject I handle it quite well is MKT....
Because I retake this subject... ==

Conclusion... I have a worse study spirit...
I'm wasting my time and my parent money...
I left 7 weeks to go...
Hope tomorrow, I make some changes!
Everyone pls scold me....
I need to change my attitude for study!

I wan graduate in 21 years old la.... PLS....

Just to remind myself

2009-09-07T21:13:00.003+08:00

Last year of today, have change my life.
See this, you will know...
All my 1st time.. At that day...
From an innocent girl, believe so much in love...
Because of him, hurt me so much...
He take away my dream to love...
Till today... I experience so much..
But also good, I now more mature...

2009-08-31T22:56:00.000+08:00

Where is other photo?

Really hard to upload... Bcuz the line problem again...

Plan to upload in tbs tomorrow..

If I'm not lazy.. Haha...

1st... Happy Birthday to Alexx...

I'm happy that after one year we are ok jor!

Really many things come to my mind last nite...

And Is it this is the reason I fall down???

Haha.. No la.. Bcuz that time i busy talking with hew zhen so din see properly the staircase...

Hew Zhen fault.. Haha.. No la.. Thx to him..That why, I din die in Sky Bar...

Btw, my leg is red and bengkak now.. I think tmr will blue black...

Yed nite was my 2nd time to Sky Bar...

This type of high class place I can go 2nd time really feel Yeng!

Sky Bar have nice view and nice environment,

There got romantic environment, relaxing enough...(But I prefer Club more)

And it is really very expensive when I need to pay myself for my drink...
Thx to Wendy, I know eugene then I no need pay for the 1st time..

Wow, Really very expensive...

But my cocktails is nice...Deluxe Magarita(the only photo I show)..

Just I drink a bit only then finish by other lo.. Haha..(sharing is good)

Nvm la.. RM40 can get back a friendship.. Worth ker...

Feel so good that we can talk back a little bit...Really Not easy...

But we not close like last time jor la.. Haha..

Cannot talk our kindergarden, primary, secondary things jor.. Haha..

All of us alrd 19 lo... I can feel he and me is mature alrd... Not like last time.. Sampat..

Many things really no need you worry de wor...

All arrange by God alrd...

Again.. Sze thien and Su Yii also have bf jor la..

Walao.. U guys all couple.. Left me single ma very cham...

No 1 yam cha with me... No 1 tell me whic and whic guy is leng zai...

Haiz...I want couple now also hard la... cuz I waste my Quota jor!

I know I need at least few months later only I can like another guy lo..

Tat means next year gua...

Ai ya.. Haha... Nvm la..

When you lost something, you will gain something...

I get back my friendship... I'm happy Jor...

Touching le... This is the feel when The ppl who angry you for one year without a good reason talk to you again... Wakaka...

***********************************************************************************

Small story to share

My mum yed call me and sing Merdeka Song to me..

She is cute right?

I know she miss me but she just dun wan to tell me...

My mum unlike my fren's mum.. Is very hard to receive her call...

I think 1 months the maximum only can get 2 call from her.

I really miss her now la...

Mummy, U know I miss you o not?

I din say doesn't means I dun miss you k...

I love you, Mummy.

I promise I will study hard this time...

8pm now.

2009-08-29T20:00:00.000+08:00

Where is the photo that I promise to upload?
I'm so so sorry...
Bcuz My Internet line really too louzy so so..
I failed to do so...

Haiz... Alrd week 5.. Next week will be week 6...
But my study mood, Where are you?
I really scare I failed 2nd time...
No.. is not gonna happen again..
I won't let anything affect me again..

Many things happen past few day,
Got happy, got sad...
Happy is.. Finally he invite me to his birthday...
You know.. 1 year jor.. He dun wan choi me almost 1 year jor..
This 1 year.. Dunno how to say la.. I feel sad actually when he angry me like tat..
Friend can angry friend de right?
But hor.. Haiz.. I no transport to go his birthday..
So.. I dunno how le.. I wish to go.. I dun wanna miss it..=(

Sad things.. Not really a sad things la..
Actually alrd expected.. Just I got a bit hope la..
Well.. All this things hard to control right..
Summore I just 19..
Nvm la.. If he is mine, he will be mine one day..
But sound like he won't be mine..
I will find a better one?
No lo.. PLS.. Let me rest 1st..
I'm hurt enough and I dun like the feel reject by ppl..
Next year, I will in a relationship..
I dun wanna be single anymore..
I wanna try the feel in a relationship..
I dun wanna play play like tat..
I think at least can together 1 year.

Every couple is sweet..
But I dun have tat sweet sweet feeling b4..
Wat is the feeling of telling this, "hey, this is my bf!"
I wan tat feel.. I dun wan tell ppl that, "he is my guy!"
Guy and Bf is different... Guy can find another girl but you cannot say anythings..
But if ur bf find another girl, you can scold or merajuk...
Haha.. Tat is what I want.. I'm curious with it.. =)

Wa... So sweet la.. When read Angeline blog..
She wrote his bf pm' I only love angeline'..
Haha.. I'm thinking when a guy wrote for me' I only love Hui Shang'?
Well.. i will got the chance right? B4 I 20.. I hope so..
I dun wan.. I 2o still single and available.. Bcuz I believe myself look not bad...

Ai ya.. Dunno le... Rest 1st only say la... I dun wan get hurt again..
Long time no club jor..
Thinking of going MOS...
But who can bring me go le?
I dun wan go myself sound so pity le...
Everything need money and car..

Next month..
Need buy a bag for my mum.. She is september baby..
Need buy a clubbing dress.. Is time to wear dress for club..
Need buy a slipper.. Is time to change a new slipper..
Need buy a eye linear.. If my aunty still dun wan give me all her make up sample..
So many things need to buy and everything need money..
Somemore I want save money for my next year Taiwan Trip!
Hope my dream come true lo...
I only left RM500 for next month... Really need to save save save!

K la.. C ya ppl.. Have a nice weekend!

I feel that he like me, But he pull me away... Why?

Who am I in ur heart?

2009-08-26T13:38:00.001+08:00

Answer!
I just want the answer!
Why so secret!
What happen?
Do you know I care for you?
I really care you so much!
I can't tell how much I care for you,
What you think about me?
Have you care me before?
Who am I in ur heart?
You like me b4?
I know tat is not alcoholic!
I know the reason...
Cuz I like you... Damn la...

Shit... Can't sleep just because I can't undersatnd the things...
Why dun wan tell me o!
Haiz... Disappointed...
I give up de la...

Zzz

2009-08-22T13:49:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was fun.
Will updates soon for all the photo and process.

I get cheated by Wen Yun last nite..
Speechless, Peter answer..==
Well, now only I know he already in my heart.
Die la me... How le?
I dun wan again end in like a guy dun like me.
Sound stupid la..
But.. Hard to control lo..
Haha.. Again, why I like him?
Speechless, June.. You play me like tat..
Lucky I din ask you to help me ask the same question Ah pek ask..
Swt la.. I will sad de lo...
But.. Is ok la...
Like what hew zhen say, friends and study are now more important.
Love and relationship things, I can't handle at all lo..
Only for pretty girl or Nice girl..
Me so louzy... Apa pun hard to be de la..
Couple.. Haiz.. Of cuz I wish I can couple with the one I like.
But Single, Is free and nice wor...

I already lucky de la, got the chance hug and kiss with the guy I got feel.
But what he think about me le?

p/s: Suddenly back to this blog... Haha.. My chinese blog no updates for so long jor... Why ar?

NO IDEA!

*Tell me we got chance in the future, just currently we still very young, so better be friend only. I will waiting for you until you ready if you ask me to wait.

Wait me back yea!

The Feeling make me sick.

2009-08-20T09:22:00.002+08:00

I can feel the different,
But this already under my expectation.
Din feel sad at all,
Just hate myself can guess all the things.
Already can feel that he try to keep a distance with me.
Well, This is good, because both of us want different things.
Is time to stop everythings before it become worse.
I'm curious how every couple together?
Realize wanna start a relationship is really hard.
Not easy at all and need a lot of things.
Haiz.. Speechless but expected.
Well, didn't really put much feeling on it,
Cuz the feeling come itself, not under my control.

What is the meaning of kissing?
Many tell me, you love, you kiss.
Ya.. But I think is different case here.
Got feel didn't means love but we kiss and..
Just that moment I feel so wanna be with him.
Is it he is the guy I like?
Well, just my cup of tea.
But after that, Still feel afraid If I really be with him..
Confusing?
Ya, I also dun understand.
Maybe my heart still got him...
Or maybe still not the time yet.
Wait and see in the future.
If he is yours, he will be yours.
Just like I saw an example of my friend,
That guy already wanna give up her,
But at last they together.
Things sound incredible, but it does happen.
Believe in miracle, there is a miracle.
Fate make me met him,
God want me and him being like that sure got his own reason.
If we can go through this,
I believe we will happy forever.
If we can't go through this means he is not mine.

I'm happy be with you.

Totally Disappointed

2009-08-17T09:51:00.002+08:00

I suppose to do my assignment now,
Bcuz is due today 5pm.
But I just can't continue it because my mind is blank now.
Is not hard, Just I can't write.
Yed I'm emo again because of somethings.
I hate being like that.
I din say anything to anyone even someone told me somethings.
I won't say the things I'm not sure.
Can you stop blaming me?
The day i know you alrd very unlucky.

Is true, Sweetheart.
You are right, I should ignore him.
Why I still care? I no longer love him.
He break all my dream and hope,
Just know to give me trouble.
He never appreciate before the things I do for him.
Sweetheart, thx a lot.
Is great that I know you.

I miss you, sweetheart.
Btw, ppl... Just wanna tell you guys, I'm still single.
Sweetheart just my friend.

You in my mind

2009-08-11T15:36:00.002+08:00

Can anyone tell me what kissing means?
I kiss with you because I got feel thru you.
Understand?
But kiss in club, we just can say dun think so much.
I miss ur kissing.
You are the 2nd guy I feel so wanna kiss with you again.
Just a moment, and it will become the sweetest memory of my life.
Haha.. Well... I not dare to put any hope and fall for you,
Just because I get hurt b4..
You prefer single, I prefer couple.
We have different wants,
So... Just be best fren is the best choice between me and you.
Sweetheart, I miss you now.
LOL... I want my starbuck!

Will you be the next?

2009-08-10T23:10:00.002+08:00

Every photo behind sure have it own story.

I think I change a lot,

I just try to hide myself in another world,

The world is dark, I realize that is nobody pull me in the dark,

Is myself walk in the dark, and start blame others.

All is my fault? Is it true?

Can see you see the sadness in me?

Can see the tear inside my heart?

How many times I can let myself being hurt and recover again?

I don't like the relationship just like a game.

I try before treat it like a game but end up still cannot.

Who can understand what I want?

Nobody, Even myself..

I tot I'm ugly so I can't find someone really willing be my dear,

But actually I'm wrong,

That is few guy approach to me, but I have rejected.

I dun like them, They are not my cup of tea.

When I found my cup of tea,

He don't want me.

Finally I realize, the type of guy I like is playful type.

They dun wanna be couple.

Everything is messy for me..

Well, will you be the next?

Waiting for you...

Swt 99

2009-07-26T15:58:00.003+08:00

Suprise, I will do such things again...
But this time is totally different...
Bcuz I alrd know him for one week...
OMG... What I have done?
I know what I have done...
But I didn't stop myself to doing it...
Bcuz the feel just great...
Haiz.. Again do something never think about what will happen next...
But the feel just great wor, so nice o!
Summore I know I din really blur at tat time,
I know is who...
But why I do so?
Confusing....
Maybe just feel great!

Well, let it be my past...
Nothing I can do with it...
Not dare to think more than it...
I scare my history will become real again..

Miracle

2009-07-16T13:52:00.003+08:00

Never imagine before the life with you,
Never imagine before the life without you,
Is true that I still can't forget you.
But I think left friendship only.
I hope we still friend.
You and Me is a big mistake.
Fool by the god.
April fool will be our day. =)

You are not alone

2009-06-29T17:29:00.003+08:00

Micheal Jackson. A singer I don't like.
But I love his few song.
I cry for it. So sad when I heard those song.
A tallent guy has gone forever.
Haiz... When is my turn to die?
I feel so useless live in this world,
but I know commit sucide is not gd..
And I try before just lucky I din really kill myself.
Why I can't live happily like others and don't think so much.

Today I saw a fren blog,
I would like to say this here,
若生命等于灿然，我愿意用我的快乐换走你的寂寞。我宁愿我寂寞，也不愿看你不开心。
I really dun wan to fight, I know I still love him.. BUT I dun wan he unhappy because of me.
I know I 'm stupid but no one is clever in love right.

You are not alone, Frm Michael Jackson.
Yea, I'm not alone. =)

June

2009-06-23T10:02:00.002+08:00

I'm in college now and I'm writing this while waiting others wake up.
Special post for One of my special friend, June.
Today is her big day and she now same age with me, 19 this year.
She not my 1st friend in Taylors but she is my 2nd friend...
And the longest friend in Taylors Business School.
I know her 1st day in Foundation Orientation Week and
I'm glad that she same class with me.
She is a very kind, cute, funny girl.
She do help me a lot in my study and everything.
I'm so lucky have her always help me and be with me when I'm in trouble.
Thanks for everything, darling.
I love you always and Friend forever.
Understand that one day we have to seperate in different corner in the world,
But then...
Just wanna told you that no matter where are you,
The deepest greeting from my heart will delivered to you in the rest of your birthday.
Happy 19th birthday!

Haha..So sorry because of exam we not yet prepared ur birthday celebration and present. But then belated birthday celebration in Genting yea. Wait for it, k... =)

Dun worry, no matter how poor am I, Ur present sure have de... But have to wait la..Wakaka..

Last but not least, wish you always happy and pretty. Hope you found your happiness soon. God bless you.

Zzz

2009-06-11T16:56:00.002+08:00

So long I din updates here..
I think more than a month...
I dunno why I start blogging..
Can't find any reason why I no blogging recently..
Just now i read a fren blog...
I know and understand,
My face look like easy to fool...
Ya.. play my feeling is fun...
Haiz.. Feel so wanna cry la...
Wat happen to me?
I got do anything wrong?
Why hurt me one by one?
Luckily now i'm stronger...
I understand that this all is not true...
So I din put much feeling and hope in it...
I think not even feeling and hope, my heart ard close...
Lonely, so look for me?
Haha..Funny, I also lonely lo, means I also need to look for you?
Fuck off pls...
Haiz.. What wrong with me...
Why wanna angry?
Zzz, fucking angry la....
The anger just can't control.. Not under my control.. And cheer that i din accept it!
I'm lucky... Can't imagine if i accept it... Sure become a big joke for others...

Game Over

2009-05-01T01:50:00.002+08:00

The games alrd end 2 week ago...
Long time didn't updates here..
I dunno why.. Maybe I lazy to blog anymore..
But still write out all this now..
Ya.. I am very sad and unhappy..
I miss him so much..
I can't kiss and hug him anymore...
Sad.. but I know everything is over..
Why can't he love me because i love him?
Oh, That's the end of the story when he not love me.
He will be history of mine..

So Sad when you can;t get someone u love beside you forever.
I'm still waiting for my Mr. Right...

Erm.... No reason..

2009-03-18T15:08:00.002+08:00

I just miss him...
I know we only can be friend...
I still wanna continue the game...
Maybe accidently got feeling jor...
Hope and hope i can escape from him..
But hope and hope i can get him too..
The ending nobody will know..
But i can predict... He won't be mine, cuz he alrd have someone.

Dun ask me why do so, feeling sometimes can't control...
I dun wan be a third party, but feel like wanna do now..
Just for a moment... I think maybe is ok...
The feel just great... Miss it and wish to have it again..
God.. Teach me what to do.. Dun tell me this is wrong, cuz lost control.

I just miss his *K & H* right now... So sweet...

Just 4 month

2009-03-14T11:23:00.003+08:00

Life never change without you,
Understand that my life have no change.
Yesterday i dream of Xx talk back to me.
Just talk a little bit to me, like wat happen in the 1st time we met.
I know that is the hints told me,
We never speak again to each others.
I'm sad.. But what to do..
I lost a best fren..
Again.. I gonna lost one soon...
People like to enjoy life with me with the word buddy..
K.. I got feel.. So what..
I not dare to like him or even love him..
I love myself more... I can't make any promise to anyone..
That is really bad.. But I just can't change it..
I'm a super emo person but everyone will think i'm super happy person..
I'm gifted with talkative person..
Ya.. I can talk in any situation..
Some will think i'm nice.. Some will think i'm irretating..
I just can't talk in my class..
Bcuz i'm afraid everyone shoot me again like wat happen in my foundation moment..
I dun mind fren with who.. I dun mind group wit who..
As long as give me a peaceful life..
Expecially now i still din't escape the faith same class wit chee nien.. and..
Nvm... Just one sem.. I told myself just 4 month.. Is very easy to pass the time..

Games

2009-03-13T15:40:00.002+08:00

I just feel so wanna escape.
I scare samething will happen again,
how many times of pain i can cure myself.
We just can't open our mouth and say Hi.
I feel he like me. But that is not true right.
I' m playing fire.

Emoing...
Feel so wanna cry, but still can smile.
I know myself can laugh when i feel very sad.
I never show my angry face to anyone.
Tam... I'm a girl very easy to tam and jsut neeed tam.
Every1 enjoy together wit me, but the status always just a buddy.
Enough, here is dangerous again.
Try to stop when that is the chance for u to stop.

Today is a 1st day

2009-03-12T13:26:00.002+08:00

Back to here...
Well.. This blog start when i'm in foundation...
Now i'm a UNISA student..
Times Flies...
I failed my bst, I resit my bst and now alrd 2 week in uni life..
I still in a very blur case..
Wat should I do.. I dunno..
Busy working and study, of cuz still play a lot...
So long i din updated my english blog and i wanna reuse here..
Well.. The reason so simple... I belong to here...

How is my life recently?
Great?Busy?Empty?Unlucky?
Well, recently I dun need my secret anymore to calm me down...
I have a new buddy.. But my old buddies left me...
My english still poor? Ya lo.... That why i'm afriad in UNISA now...
Back to the begining, Tis wat i want?
No... Just continue the life i have now...
Hard to go back to 18.. I'm alrd 19....

I'm just 19, i gone thru many things and i know that still a lot of things wait for me...
I'm stilll a single...
What wrong if i'm still a single??
I just dun wanna be single..
Many things that fren can't do, parents can't do,
Only HIM will do...
Ya la.. I know la.. Study 1st ma.. But i alrd consider adult jor..
What wrong if now i got a boy friend or not a virgin?
Ok.. I know i not dare... So be a virgin lo.. (What can i do?)
Virgin also not bad ma.. At least ppl will think you are innocent...
Ya lo... That is me... Innocent... Haha...

Last but not least, Happy 19 years old...
Soon will be 20 Jor... Sad...

I just miss Xx

2009-02-12T00:29:00.003+08:00

Alrd 3 weeks i graduate from my foundation...
Chinese new year alrd finish...
But everything still not yet back to the normal..
I'm still afraid to know my result..
And I feel great it will release tomorrow...
Now i'm working part time in Sunway Piramid...
Is fun when i earn but tired...
I found out i so long din updates here...
The main reason is wat?
I not really know... Just try to escape from here?
Maybe here not a place suitable for me..
Or here is my place alrd?
Confusing? Well... I really miss him..
Not my ex.. But is Xx...
A fren will crazy together wit me...
Life are incredible..
I never knew that one day we are not a fren anymore..
I miss Xx.. "How are you?" I know he will be fine...

Just a record....

2009-01-16T10:52:00.003+08:00

Emo... Ya.. I very emo now...
I realize so long I din back to here...
I found out i hate college life...
I hate to go college every morning...
Bcuz i have to face those people with a dirty mouth...
Every single day talk about my blog, my apperance...
Even say i'm a dog...
What wrong with me...
I still help... I remember that day i call him when is his turn to speaking test...
I din expect him to thanks me or appreciate my remind,
But what i get is, I'm like a dog... I shouldn't help...Those who Help people is a dog?
Is hurt.. Really hurt me..
What else i can get from the college if everyday hurt by people..
Everyone try to hurt me is it?
I know is unfair to say so bcuz some of them treat me so nice..
I'm sorry..
I'm confusing...
I'm sad...
Pls... Dun let me same class with them in degree...
I dun wan get hurt anymore... I dun wan people keep on say i'm a dog..
I dun wan people keep on make fun with my blog..
Here the only place that i'm left is fun...
What can i do if the only fun place i found was lost...
I ll go crazy one day.. I really can't stand anymore..
I'm not that strong.. Not everything i can treat it as nothing...
Make fun on me, i not really care but pls dun too over..
Well, now everything is over.. I finish my lst class with them in foundation...
At last, I want to wish all my classmate have a happy and brightest future...
To all friend i know in college, no matter you hate me or dislike me...
I wanna wish you all, All the best and god bless you...

Countdown for the Christmas

2008-12-22T16:29:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas.. Everyone..
I dunno what I expect for the Christmas..
But I just feel my heart have lose something that i din realize..
Life? Again.. I think this is life..
I will celebrate my christmas in Melaka...
Bcuz I'm from Melaka.. Melaka still my lovely hometown...
I dun care what you think about my hometown..
Suck?? or Louzy.. Is ok.. I still proud of it..
I nvr proud with my hometown before i 'm here to study..
Now i realize how warm is my hometown..
Eventhough i dun have homesick problem and love here b4..
But 2 guys make mind change... But this 2 guys not from here neither..
I fall in love with them... Maybe.. I'm not sure...
Now, Not even fren between me and them...
How much can i put down the feeling thru them?
I can't forget the moment together with Xx, I still miss him...
I say I angry him, but the miss are more than the angry..
How can i angry him? Teach me how... Force myself to hate him but still failed..
I wanna find my happinese.. without them..
Of cuz i will feel happy if that day i receive Xx&Ex msg wish me Merry Christmas.
This will be my little wish now...
Hope i can receive their wish on my lovely christmas... I love you! Christmas!

p/s: I will celebrate my Christmas in Purebar... One of the club in Melaka.. Not as great as the Club in KL.. But the best in Melaka..

Life

2008-12-16T17:02:00.003+08:00

Haha... Long time din updates my english blog lo..
Hey, I'm back.. Dun worry, I still love english..
Just my chinese blog look more interesting..
I'm now Super super nice..
Watsup, you guys.. Miss me..
Life.. Nothing special..
Gonna continue study in taylors...
Not bcuz i love taylors..
Bcuz i alrd choose taylors..
No choice, no turning back and Taylors very expensive..
Omg.. The price of my school fees increase..
Not only 5% but is 10%..
That is the worse things i know today..
What if i not continue study.. Well, i will waste my Foundation..
Cuz i still hard to find any jobs without degree certificate..
This the truth.. And it sound cruel....
Everything is money, perhaps i din get any scolarship..
Is time for me to look for a part time job i think.. Haha..Maybe..

This is life.. Not everything is in good condition..

So what!!!

2008-12-06T15:44:00.002+08:00

I dun care.. I'm A bad girl!
I just change my mind, I wanna be a bad girl!
I dun care.. I live for myself...
I wish to go clubbing again..
Bcuz i have a super fun clubbing section last wednesday!
If u think i go clubbing, I'm bad.. I'm cheap.. Then u are wrong..
I have fun there... I still study.. I still din simply waste the money...
Ok.. That day, i have to thanks Ming Jie for treating me..
I drunk a bit... But actually not.. Just not feeling well....
I just spend RM 8.00 for the teksi that day.. and that money is mine.. not my parent..
I earn from my blog and the part time job...
I like dance.. I like the atmosphere there.. I enjoy it..
I dun think that myself is bad girl...
I just dare to try.. But i got my own limit..
I admire someone, but doesn't means i have to learn from her..
The real Hui Shang is awake.. Wait to see..
Damn it... FxxK!!!

Happy Sem 3

2008-12-01T11:58:00.003+08:00

Ya, I'm in college now!
2weeks holidays finish.. and I Very happy!
I have a very happy holiday...
I dun wan talk more about it,
Bcuz i dun wan share my happy wit u guys.. Haha..
Well, this sem, My new life begin...
No more Xx, no more him, No more sad,No more boss,
I dun care anything.. Watever.. I dun care..
Come, Chee nien, continue hurt me la..
You will regret one day..
I'm not afraid anyone from this sem onward...
Happy Sem 3!!!

p/s: My blog all i write is my right.

Reward from Jo Jin

2008-11-27T11:40:00.002+08:00

The Rules
1. Each blogger must post this rules
2. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves
3. Blogger that are tagged need write about their own blog their ten things and post these rules . you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names .
4. Don`t forget to leave them comment telling them they've been tagged and to read your blog .

Thank you Jo Jin o!!! Haha.. I so happy i got this reward.. So I decide to put this award in my 2 Blog. Lol...(must Hao lian a bit!!) I cute o??? I know she very honest de.. Sure I cute is true..

K... 10things of me..

1. I can't control my emo, when my emo come.

2. I like to use 1 hand to drive, but my skill not gd de.. So quite dangerous.

3. I like to follow people, cuz i lazy to think.

4. I always feel hard to decide somethings. Cuz i feel myself always decide wrong.

5. I like to blog everyday.

6. I like to talk.

7. I like to see leng zai and leng lui.

8. I like to try new things, i always so curious.

9. I like to day dreaming, i hope i no need work and can enjoy my life. But fact is impossible. Haha...

10. I like to say but din do. Ex, i say i wan slim down but i still keep on eating.

Hoho.. I got more about myself de, but... only need to write 10... so... Haha... I wan pass to..

1.U zhing( I like her blog, bcuz she write her true feeling)

2.Jessie(A lot of nice food in her blog)

3. Jo Jin( her blog about her and her bf memang cute de la, but HAha.. She alrd got tis reward)

4.She Wei( She look cute)

5.Yong Yong( Her name cute...)

6.I dun have so many fren to tagged o...so the ppl who read this b4 28/11 pls leave ur name. I wan give this award to you.

My feeling....

2008-11-18T09:47:00.002+08:00

I'm in Melaka now.
My exam was over, and my second sem was end.
My trip to A Famosa was over too.
Life are complicated.
Totally agree with that.
I dunno what i want.
I tell myself that I hate him,
But end up I so care about him.
My caring and nervous are different.
The person i care the most,
I will more cruel to him.
This is my style.
But no 1 know.
Even my best friend.
I dunno why i'm like that.
I dunno... Bcuz i have no answer....
Worry, but what can i do... I'm nobody.... I just try to help...
But end up my heart was hurt.
I totally hurt by them... I dunno how to show out myself...
I dunno how to control my emo and my temper...
I'm a loser.. Totally a loser... After that day, i wish i no need to face them again...
The hurt still inside... I dun wan people hate me... I scare.. I afraid..
I wan to mix around and have more fren..
But i failed to do it... I no fren....Now.. This is what i feel..
Recently... i'm alone and lonely...
Many of my fren ask me dun think too much.. But this not i wish to think..
Is a fact.. Is a reality.. I know i have to face this world with myself...
My parent and family and best fren... They can't help..
They just can able advise me and tell out what is my fault..
Well.. who can understand... the feeling i go through.. NOBODY...
I choose to live for myself... IS A BULLSHIT.. What Jonathan say...
He is right.. We cannot choose to live for ourself.. We have to live for others....
The fake person will have more fren than others....
This is what i not yet learn... Where is my mask?

The deepest side of my heart, I care for him...
But the outside I hate him so much....
Once you are my fren, the whole of my life, you will be my fren.....
So i really can't force myself to hate him.. Forgive me.. Cuz i lie to myself...

Sang Huey, Thx ur tagged ar!

2008-11-02T16:49:00.003+08:00

Tagged by Sang Huey
1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
I will cry and do nothing.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
I'll wish that i'm super clever and pretty girl.

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
Not interested to do so.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
enjoy life till i die...

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Possibllility super low...

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Answer before.. See previous tagged.

7. D0 you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Answer see previous tagged.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Choose to forget and be his best fren.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
When together with my best fren.

10. What takes you down the fastest?
Fren, Result and relationship.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
Married. Have my children and the life i want.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
Everyone i know is important for me.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Cool, pretty... and smart of cuz...

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
I willl choose not too rich but married. I need a partner for the rest of my life.

15. (a)What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
Open my eyes.

15(b)What is your mood now?
Emo... Bcuz a lot of things need me to do and I miss someone.

16. (a)Your favourite weather is?
Cloudy, no sun.

16.(b) Would you give all in a relationship?
I won't, i only will give 70%.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I will choose that guy i love him more.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
I always forget and forgive ppl.

19. Would you suffer now and enjoy later or the opposite?
I always enjoy 1st, bcuz nobody will know what would happen tomorrow.

20.Who are u planning to tag next?
She Wei, Yong yong, Amanda, James, and who read this tagged.

Happy Holiday!!!!

2008-10-26T09:59:00.003+08:00

Holiday now....
Well, Really busy ths few day,
So i just updates my chinese blog...
I'm sorry...
I know some of my fren can't read chinese...
Therefore, i'm stilll will continue my english blog as well...

Ok, Let's us back to thursday...
I love thursday and i hate thursday...
The reason i love is because it is ladies night...
But the moral assignment things make me so troublesm...
I can't play full of joy!

Haiz.. the whole storylong and long..
So i also dun wan talk about it anymore...

Nothing much to read...
Happy Holiday!!!!

This holiday, I'm in Subang Jaya!!!!

From James.and Amanda

2008-10-22T11:20:00.004+08:00

Tagged by James and Amanda
1. What's the relationship of you and her/him?
Friend

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?
Friendly
Hardworking
Nice
Happy
Rich

3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you.
I read your blog. ( because i'm suprize that he will read my blog!)

4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you
Tagged me.

5. If she/he became your lover, you will..
Never think before that.

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will...
Quite impossible cuz i seldom angry people.

7. If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on..
English.

8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is..
Wait we be enemy, then i will tell out!

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
Be his friend.

10. The overall impression of him/her is...
Hardworking and nice.

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
Someone who is crazy and not make sense in many things.

12. The character of you for yourself is?
Emo.

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
Hard to put one thing down.

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
No idea.

15. For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them.
I love you all!

No people to tag.

No Title

2008-10-17T23:43:00.002+08:00

1st... So sorry that i din update here for so long...
Haizz... bcuz really too busy!
My world left busy....
Finally all the assignment finish half alrd...
At least 3 alrd pass up..
And i think we have try our best to do lo...
So happy happy for it...
And 2 more will pass up soon!!!
Haha... I will get back my freedom after that..
Trust me.. But... After this is exam time...
Love it so much man!
I can kill myself again.. and stress like hell...
Imagine alrd know what will i do...
Scream.. Non stop.... Ar~
HAha...maybe plus my secret...
Well, times fly...
I understand he won't look for me anymore..
No fren do??? Is it this is the truth...
Haiz.. This is my main problem now.. I think so..
Mess... Not understand wat i trying to say??
Well.. anyway.. I wan to tell you...
Can anyone help me to return the money to him???
Wat money is that.... That money is my promise to him..
A secret recipe cake.. But i failed to give him that day cuz..
Before the date.. He alrd angry me...
But I can't tell anyone about me and him..
Ar.... I can't stop guilty....
Kill me.. Now...
Faster kill me... I'm so suffer for it...

p/s: I still love him? or I alrd din love him?
p/s: Miss the time when you hold my hand... sweet.....
p/s: Hope you still me fren, miss the time crazy with you.... I found out only play together wit u, I feel the fun...

102post...Monday again!

2008-10-13T14:30:00.002+08:00

This is 102 post...
Again now I in college....
I notice writing in college not a bad idea...
Haha... Bcuz this can help me to save a lot of time...
And fullfilled my free time in college...
Haiz... Mon, wed, and thurs i got a lot of break!=="

Actually nothing much to write...
Cuz Life now are boring and full of assignment...
There are three assignment due date this week...
And i notice that assignment always will do in last minute...
Bcuz of nature of Human????
Nonsence... I know.. But Somethings true wat!
If not till last minute, the product sure not good enough!
Lol... excuss only... Boring...

Yesterday went to Sunway Piramid again...
Raining again... So we walk till night only went back...
Kinda tired... I'm thinking of S when i reach home!
The feeling so strong.... Still i can't get out from it is it?
No, The truth not like tat.. I know myself well.....
I alrd get out from it, just i still dunno the reason...
I angry myself why not dare to ask ..... and even hate myself...
At night, we crazy looking for Vivi's frenster....
She is a Form5 girl and she is beautiful but She is LaLa!
Haha... We keep on laugh at her photo...
Reason??? Wakaka.... 18sx... Can't tell here...

I'm tired...
I give up to repair me and Xx frenship,
Unless he want to be my fren again...
I'm ok and i'm happy if he wan to be my fren again...
No need be a close fren but at least will smile to each others...
My life still very good without him... Just my heart feel hurt!
Cuz he is the 1st one angry me with the ridiculous reason...

p/s: All depend on YOU... Life still good...
p/s: Do you guy sleep alrd after reading my blog? I know is boring... Haha...

What is the Title?

2008-10-10T11:33:00.003+08:00

Now i in BCP class...
Again updated my english blog in college...
But most the time i will updates my chinese blog at home,
Because no chinese input in the computer of the college...
Really very boring this class...
But i know i have to pass it this sem...
If not i have to continue suffer next sem...
Most the time i use this computer lab lesson read others blog...
Haha... Wonder why when i start addict to reading others blog..
Well, I love to know the things other than my world...
Through reading others blog...
I know many things i dunno and know them better...

Yesterday, my fren ask me why i love to blog...
Well, i also not really know...
It not really my diaries...
Bcuz secret still won't write out here...
Just a habbits.. I think...
My english are not good...
But I still love to write something in english...

I know this few days,
I very tired...
Not only because of the assignment...
There are many reason make me feel tired...
If only physical feel tired..
Then i just need to rest more, It will become better...
But now my mentally are very tired...
Everyday, I have stop myself of thinking those thing and those people..
I hate comment from people...
But i care about it...
I need others comment to make myself become better and perfect...
I know there are a lot of people hate me...

I really dunno what to do....

p/s: Lost again...

Times will prove everything...

But when was it?

Angry+Worry+???

2008-10-08T08:49:00.002+08:00

Really angry lo....
Waste my time....
Again... The class cancel...
Arh~ But all of us wait in the class for more than half an hour!
Alrd many times lo!!!
Once we late to class, we will get scold terrible...
But she din come to class... Din inform us!
I think now she still in sleeping lo!
Cuz nobody able to call her...
Omg.. Alrd 10 weeks lo!
Should clear with herself timetable...
At least can't make it, must inform ma!
Shit la... Still have 3hours more to go before the next class lo!
Well... This not a big problem.. Bcuz many things i can do with the computer!
The big problem is she din inform us....

Haha.... Now I in the E-access1...
Bcuz too busy this few days...
So i only able to updates my chinese blog...
The english blog only can updates in college lo...
Haha... Well, english blog also important...
Now i'm thinking is it better for me just write the same things in both blog...
Just one in english, one in chinese...
The problem is take me a lot of time to translate lo...
Dunno ler... Need to think properly lo....
Anyway, reader can choose their favourite...
And the purpose of me blogging is to release stress...

Okay... I know nonsense again....
Bcuz i always updates de..
Dun worry...
Ooops... Wat i talking about??????

To Xx... I give up to msg You lo...
I respect ur decision...
Cuz i feel useless... If i keep on try to repair our friendship...
But YOU dun wan it anymore...
Without YOU, I still can live....
But just feel a bit "ke xi" bcuz lost YOU as my fren...
YOU are still one of the best fren of mine...
I dun care what will happen in the future...
If YOU need my help.. I still will help YOU...

p/s: Life sometimes make me feel tired... But now YOU make me feel tired.....

Many things want to talk to YOU.........

"Actually i know YOU won't read my blog, won't read my msg, won't answer my
call de... Bcuz that day i saw her calling you and you refuse to answer that
call... Why YOU want make your life so difficult.. Can't YOU just forgive her
and me... Now i understand both of YOU can't be fren anymore not only her false,
ur false too... YOU may think fren not important... So YOU so easy give up a
frenship... Once YOU hurt ppl, I believe it hurt YOU too... Do YOU feel Lonely
now? I just worry YOU will feel lonely... Without YOU, I still have many fren..
But YOU dun have many fren that is true in here...Is it YOU eat alone
again?"

I'm worry about YOU......

Still the same..

2008-10-06T14:29:00.004+08:00

Melaka... I still miss Melaka...
I wish i have long holiday...
But still my holiday already finish....

Hi, people...
I'm back to Subang Jaya...
The new me....
Yea... I think i dun wan be last time that stupid Hui Shang!
Cuz that 1 really too stupid lo...
No more... Be that stupid girl... "Hurt by people still say sorry!"
Yes... That is me... I got a terrible nightmare in last month..(September)
Well... I have a very great time in last last month...( August)
This two month really can consider heaven and hell...
August is heaven... September is hell....
August... Too sweet, memorable, fun, wonderful...
September... Full of suffer, sadness, tears...
So now i wan to be a new person....
That's enough tears for this two guys...
Enough....

Erm.. time really can prove everything...
Let the time prove for me..
Why all this will happen so suddenly...
Yesterday is my last msg top Xx to say sorry...
Wat i can do.. I already do and i think is enough...
But he still dun accept my sorry...
I din do anything wrong...
I just go 1st and left him alone there...
Its really a small matter...
And for sure that i use my heart to be his fren...
Not bcuz anything.. I din take advantage on him...
And i believe i alrd send more than 10 msg to him to say sorry.
Really..Haiz.. I dun wan to lost him either...
But now is him dun wan friend with me anymore...
Well... I scare him become lonely...
Bcuz sometimes he just look so lonely...
Got a lot of fren doesn't means he is not lonely...
Sad to see he is lonely... so i try my best to recover our friendship.
The last thing what i can do for him?

Why why why.. There are many why in my heart..
But no one can answer me...
Hope my october will be better...
Dun ask i'm ok o not...
For sure i hard to be ok when i face all this...
It is a hurt... Really hurt...
Hurt till i hard to sleep in everynight...
I scare when i wake up tomorrow,
The things still dun have any changes...
Still worse... What's wrong with u guys?
What is my false?
I treat you two still not enough good?
I help you two do so many things...
I din ask for anything...

p/s: Why the person i care so much dun wan to care me?
p/s: I hope the time can be reverse... Then i can choose again...

Sorry, Xx!

2008-10-02T13:52:00.003+08:00

Hi.. people...
I still in Melaka....
I still enjoy my holiday...
Selamat Hari Raya....
But dunno why this Hari Raya like very quiet...
Din see a lot of people yesterday in shopping centre.
Almost end lo... My holiday...
But the mood to study still not yet come back to me...
Sien lo...
Even blog also feel no mood...
So So... You only able to see short short post here...
Well... Chinese blog got a longer blog lo...
Haha... When I so "pian xin" de le?
Sry lo.... Really dunno write what here la...
No new topic yea!
Nothing can let me share o!

Oh ya... Yesterday i read a article in newspaper,
Blog is good for health o!
Bcuz you will express all ur stress and emotion thru blogging.
Gd lo... Then i think i should be very healthy de lo!
But I still miss him...

Again...
Hope he read my blog...
Cuz he ignore my msg...
So i wanna say sorry to him in here...
Sorry, Xx... I think i sure hurt you so badly.
So until now you also hardly forgive me...
I wish to write u name here de,
But i promise you before that i won't write ur name here.
So Xx you should know i'm talking to you.

p/s: Forgive me pls.... You alrd angry me a month lo!

Tagged again...

2008-10-02T13:40:00.003+08:00

Tagged by: Yong Yong

1. What is the relationship of you and her/him?
Coursemate and same birthday with me

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?
Humurous, Nice, Beautiful

3. The most memorable things she/he had done for you.
Comment in my blog?

4. The most memorable things she/he have said to you.
Err.. we can celebrate birthday together??

5. If she/he become your lover, you will..
Impossible.

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will...
Away from her lo!

7. If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on..
No idea.

8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is...
Beautiful than me.. hahahahaha

9. The most desirable thing to do on her/him is?
I don't know..

10. The overall impression of her/him is..
Nice people.

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
Straight forward, ugly, talk too loud, easy to cheat, emotion, funny....

12. The character of you for yourself is?
Unique.

13. What do you hate about yourself?
Stupid, Fat and Ugly.

14. The most ideal person that you want to be is?
Strong character, beautiful, slim, intelligent, Powerful?, humourous, ex Wang Lee Hom(girl version)

15. For the people who care about you and like you, say something to them
Thx for everything. I love you all, you are the best!

Ten people to tag:1. June 2. Chia Lynn 3. ?? Who wanna do the tag, just do it and tell me.

Come to me!

2008-09-30T10:13:00.004+08:00

Now at Melaka!!!
HAha.... Holiday!!!
Wow.... So nice o! Relax....Only...

Let back to Saturday,
Saturday we go many boutique in Melaka...
Then at night i have a wonderful dinner with family.
Hoho... Bcuz that day is my mum birthday!
Lol... But after dinner, i straight away rush to starbuck in Dp,
Meet with hui ling and sze wei!
Haha... Bcuz our third clubbing night in Pure bar @ Melaka.
My god! We met a lot of fren there! Actually we just plan 3 of us enjoy there!
But end up i think got around 6 or 7 play together with us.
Really fainted.... Silk yuan alrd drunk b4 11pm!
Haha... Lousy lo... Erm... I'm not gd too la... But i know to plan my time...
Wow, i saw many "kindergarden kids" smoking o!
Yer... Damn Funny lo....
Haha... No photo o! Cuz lazy to take~
Then again lo.... we slept in Wei's house lo...
But that day i sick o! So din chat much with them alrd fall asleep!
They keep on scold me... But i also no choice lo!

Sunday,
Family day... Stay at home only lo... And go facial lo...
Cuz my face really worse lo... Too ugly!!!
And my mum cook her 1st pumkin rice.
Nice... But too simple...
At night, we plan to eat nyonya food de,
But really too many people lo! (people moutain people sea)
So end up we eat Taiwan Ramen... But ok ok only.. Not tat nice also!
Then later we go to "2gu"(aunty)'s house.
I so long din visit her since i study in Subang Jaya.
Then again they watch "Money Not enough2"...
Imagine this is my third time watch it... Really can't laugh anymore...
But my mum can laugh without knowing any Hokkien in the movie.
HAha.... No subtitles o... I really dunno how she able to laugh...

Monday,
Again meet with sze wei and hui ling them! Haha...
This time my turn to fetch them out...
Haha... My driving skill i think got improvement lo!
But for parking still so bad...
We go Jeti there play pool then we go Dp eat Sushi!
HAha... All the sushi from mon to fri, 3pm to 6pm only half price.
Great le... Yesterday we eat so many only cost RM12per person!
Haha... And This week I should eat vegetarian!
But now i think only my parent and my brother eat vegetarian.

Lol... I think that's all for today lo!
Cuz now i wan to go out lo....
Bowling... wait for me yea! Haha...

p/s: When i'm alone, I'm still thinking of you! Why you wanna do so?

Times will bring you to a new journey,
Be patient... Wait for the time pass...
18 going to 19.... few more month....

Thanks God!

2008-09-24T17:44:00.002+08:00

"Can you forgive me?"
I really so sad that you still angry me.
I alrd so regret left you there eating alone.
Haiz... I think more than 10 msg i send to you,
To say sorry.
Fren... Pls la..One more time...Forgive me!
So sad that i lost you as my fren.
You the only one i will tell you all the things happen in Here.
Now really can't find a fren like you.
Cuz should i trust anyone from now?

What is life?
Yesterday, Today...
I heard 2 people pass away,
One is standard 2 student,
One is 40++ women.
Why so many people die?
Really need to appreciate when you still alive today!

Today i laugh at myself.
Why i'm so stupid?
I asking myself, who am i?
Haha... I won't be so stupid anymore....

p/s: Thanks god, I'm still alive...

When i fall in love wit you,
My nightmare have begin!
Now i let you go,
I think is the time for it to end!

Tagged again...

2008-09-22T14:49:00.004+08:00

Lol... Another tag o! Haha... ( Below got new post o, dun forget to read)

Tagged by Amanda::
instructions::Never see the questions before you arrange the names - all mentioned below are TAGGED by me!
1. June
2. Chia Lynn
3. She Wei
4. Yong Yong
5. Sang Huey
Here comes the questions;
1. How did you meet 1?
- June, I met her in college. We same group in orientation.
2. On a scale of 1 - 10, how would you rate your friendship with 1?
-June. 5 lor (I not really know you that well)
3. How long have you known 4?
-Yong yong, ?? month. Not sure...
4. How do you know number 3?
-She Wei, i talk to her 1st in M floor. Then she teach me create Cbox in my blog. I feel so touch!
5. Where's 5?
-Sang Huey. study in Nottingham -.-
6. A fact about number 1?
-June, Scare this scare that...(maybe, I also not sure)
7. Who is 4 going out with?
-Yong Yong, I dunno wor:D
8. What does 1 do for a living?
-June, She eat for living..ahaha
9. Would you live with number 3?
-She Wei, Yes...Maybe....
10. What do you like about number 2?
-Chia Lynn,she is so nice to me
11. Do you miss number 5?
-Sang Huey, Yes! Miss her so much...
12. Would you make out with number 4?
-Yong Yong... Dunno... Haha...
13. What's your opinion on number 2?
-Sang Huey, She is cool~
14. What's your favourite memory with number 5?
-Sang Huey, in Langkawi, We take part in drama together.
15. What will you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?
-June and Chia Lynn, Talking lo!
16. Ever had a long conversation with 5?
- Sang Huey... Sure... We got a lot of thing to chat when in Langkawi
17. Have you ever slept at 2's house?
-Chia Lynn, Nope... Too far...
18. Do you hang out with 3 a lot??
-She Wei, No hang out before....
19. Who have you known the longest?
-Sang Huey, Form1 i alrd know her.
20. What will happen if number 1 and 5 have a relationship?
-June and Sang Huey, Impossible...
21. How often do you talk to 1?
-June, Everytime i wanna talk to her...
22. What about 2?
-Chia lynn, Always in msn...
23. Have you ever thought 3 more than a friend?
-She Wei, no... cuz i'm not lesbian....
24. Would you go on a date with number 5?
-Sang Huey, I always date her...
25. Do you dream about number 2?
-Chai lynn, no wor....
26. What did no.4 did to you that you can never forget?
-Yong yong, always read my blog and give me some encourage...
27. What have you done for to 1 that the person never forgets?
-June, Nothing wor....
28. What's 3's hobby?
-She Wei, i not tat close wit her, so i dunno... I will know it soon!
29. Only tag June, Chia lynn, and Sang Huey....

Monday

2008-09-22T08:28:00.002+08:00

Lol.... A new day of a week!
Today,
I'm ok lo....
After rest 2 days....
No more moody!
And now even feel my mood get better!
So fast recover... All need to thank my Super best fren!
Su yii, Kai Loon, Hui Ling, Sze Wei, Jonathan, Sze thien and more...
Who name not here, not i forget you... Just too much, can't write all...
Hoho... Really can't forget to thank my ~Ge Ge~ lo...
He the one who always listen to me...
Haha... Now really feel myself quite annoying lo...
Erm... Everything was over...
Doesn't matter what is our ending...
For result, friendship and love...
Important is the process...
So fast can put down means i alrd grow up...
Well, i still able to smile to him when i saw him..
No hate at all... See.. I'm really very forgiveful de...

New day, new mood, new Hui Shang...
What the previous post mention,
Really no need to care too much...
Blog just wanna release our stress sometimes...
But next time i hope my blog will full with happiness..
And now someone make me feel so funny!
I know i do like tat is quite bad la..
But Really can't stand not to play...
Haha... Forgive me.. God...

Ok.. that's all for the conclusion of Sat and Sun...
And finally moonlight resonance FINISH!
Great hor..... Haha...
Today i will finish it!
C ya..

p/s: Yeepee.... Haha... Next week holiday! Finally~ Must fully charge only back to study!

I'm in hell now!

2008-09-19T21:51:00.004+08:00

Stop it!
I'm very very stress now!
I can't do anything,
But i have to!
Why i feel like in the hell...
You hurt me!
That's all for today!
I just wanna escape from everything!
Really no mood to update my blog.
So maybe few day you will see no update here!
Maybe only!
I wanna kill myself.
Can i....?
Who can understand the pain i go thru now?
Again like last time... my history...
Same situation... And Tis time my heart even pain than last time.
Shit....
Take off my memory pls!

Should i say " Welcome to hell！"

p/s: Everything will be ok soon.

How well you understand me?

2008-09-17T18:49:00.004+08:00

Tagged by yong yong.

Starting time: 6.52pm
Name: Koh Hui Shang (Sanze)
Sisters:1
Brothers:1
Shoe Size: 9
Height: 165 cm
Where do you live: Subang Jaya
Favourite drinks: Hot Chocolate, lemonade
Favourite breakfast: Sandwiches
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yea
Swam in the ocean: No
Fallen asleep at school: Got. But seldom
Broken someone's heart: Always accidently hurt someone but i dunno.
Fell off your chair: Yea
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:
Hate to do so, but yes, cuz can't control myself.
What is your room like: The most safety place for me to cry
What's right beside you: Handphone, a cup of water
What is the last thing you ate: Nando and Strawberry wit chocolate and cream puff
Ever had chicken pox: Yes
Sore throat: I hate it, cuz i love talking!
Stitches: No.
Broken nose: No
Do you believe in love at first sight: Yes, but just a moment.
Like picnics?: Enjoy it a lot!
Who was the last person you danced with: Wendy( My roommate + Best fren)
Last person made you smile: Sze Thien
You last yelled at: Chee Nien
Today did you:
Kissed anyone: Nope
Get sick: My heart was sick
Miss someone: Yes, a lot. But i dun think he know.
Eat: Yea
Best feeling in the world: A lot.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: No
What's under your bed: Dust
Who do you really hate: Nobody. Hard to totally hate someone
What time:8.02pm (Cuz i post halfway go jogging)

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
-Play around with my brother
-Watch tv till make my father almost chase me out from house
-Talk non stop
-Always pretend forget what homework hv today then call my fren(just wan to use the phone)
-Bully my 2years old sister and 7 years old brother

5 things on my to-do list today:
-Study ( Cuz my result too worse alrd)
-Chat ( Need to talk nicely wit my boy boy, if not we will over soon)
-Rest more
-Shopping ( Alrd done, Thx Sze Thien)
-Finish Bcp assignment

5 snack I enjoy:
-Seaweed
-Chocolate
-Ice cream
-Mamee
-Cheezy Wedges

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
-Shopping non stop
-Owned my dream house( Of course all design by myself)
-Travel around the world with my darling
-give my parents money
-

5 of my bad habits:
- Day dreaming all the time
- Talk too loud
- Think too much
- Too emo
- Hot tempered

5 places I have lived/stayed a night in:
-My house in Melaka
-Ridzuan
-Upstairs of my shop( When I was young)
-Wendy's house
-Hotel

5 things I will do after complete what I'm busy with:
-Sleep
-Online
-Watch TV
-Go clubbing
-Hang out

If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
I won't do anything. Hope we still can be fren.

If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
No need working but i'm billionare

What will your dream wedding to be like?
It must be unique and romantic

On your wedding day, what you would like to see?
My darling tell me that he will love me forever.

Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
NOPE

What's your ideal lover like?
He loves me and care me, he will work hard to give me happinese

Which is more blessed?
I'm in happinese...

How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
I don't know.. It can be very long or i just give up

If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I choose to be his fren and bless him.

Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Yes. A lot.

How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
No idea. Hope i can be with him. =)

Who are currently the most important people to you?
My family, friends and him

Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
I will choose not rich, not married but in a relationship.

What's the first thing you do every morning?
Open my eyes

Would you give all in a relationship?
I will if the guy give all to me too.

If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The guy who treat me better.

What type of friends do you like?
Sporting and nice.

What type of friends do you dislike?
Hypocrites, backstabbers and jealous me.

Are you a virgin?
Yes.

Have you ever lied to your parents?
Yes, but i hv no choice.

What did you lie about?
Too many. But all is for their own good.

Currently, are you having any crush on anyone?
Yes.

Hint about him/her?
He is a guy.

Do you think the guy/girl knows?
Yes.

What phrases you usually say when something unexpected happens?
Walao! (Hokkien)

What annoys you the most?
Dunno how to answer.

What is your current obsession?
Problem between him and me.

Who do you short text the most these days?
Nobody.

Who do you miss alot now?
Him

Which secondary school friend you miss alot?
Hui Ling and Su Yii...

Who do you idolise now?
Wang Lee Hom

Best girl friend?
Wendy, Hui Ling , Sze Thien, Su Yii

Best boy friend?
Jonathan, Kai loon, Rhen Xiang, Ian, Jee Von, Jakson

Biggest fear?
Alone. Nobody wanna be wit me.

Favorite hang out place?
Sunway Piramid( No choice, the only place i can easily go)

Made any new friends recently?
Yea

What kind of mood are you in most of the time?
Emo... Suddenly happy, suddenly sad

If you were to go out with any group of friends, who will you choose?
The group of fren sporting and funny

Do you like the person who tagged you?
Yes, we are same birthday, she is very nice. Haha...

I tag nobody.

Cry again in the dark!

2008-09-15T08:44:00.004+08:00

I'm back from Melaka!
Have a very nice weekend in Melaka.
I din met wit a lot of fren,
I just met with my dearest fren, Hui Ling.
1st time i fetch her to Mahkota Parade.
My driving skill got a bit improvement lo!
We din go shopping, we just sat in starbucks.
A lot of thing have to tell her.
Too much... Bcuz my life back to emo now.
My sadness more than my happiness,
What's wrong with me?
Is it i think too much?
But yesterday night, I really can't stop my tears.
That's why i have a very bad headache this morning.
I decide to change myself.
Be a totally different people!
I dun wan care others so much, especially him!
"Why you wanna hurt me and make me cry?"
"Do you know that I cry because of you?"
Can't tell much here, cuz is something privacy.

K... Back to my Melaka moment,
All my uncle come to my house,
My grandparent also in my house now.
Again, i eat a lot!
Plus eat a lot of mooncake!
Haha... Have to keep fit lo!
If not really can't imagine next time....
Haha...Secret again!
Come personal ask me!
Maybe i will tell de!

p/s: Why you make me cry?
p/s: Love always no reason.

Practise the day without you now,

Cuz i scare i can't go thru that moment.

Melaka~I'm coming!

2008-09-11T18:34:00.003+08:00

Lol..going back Melaka tomorow!
Finally tomorrow will finish exam!
Then i'm free!
But this sencond sem too tough for me!
Hope i can pass the 2nd sem nicely!
Lol... Gampatte, every1!

Nothing to post today!
Cuz exam time hardly got things happen!
Boring~

p/s: Sorry la! Forgive me pls~

Nothing gonna change my love for you,

No more kidding lo!

This time is true lo!

I'm not ok!

2008-09-10T16:15:00.003+08:00

Really angry!
I'm sad and angry now.
Someone kill me now pls!
I hate Bcp!
Stupid Bcp!
Why hv to study Bcp?

Moody now!
No mood!
Exam 1st time feel so du lan!

p/s: I angry lo!

History For My Life!

I Love You at this moment.

Black is Back with Arthur's Day 2011

and Taio Cruz is coming for the party!

Words

Dunno how to continue

I need help~

So sad when No time

I'm not ready

Miss someone is happy~

Birthday

Just miss you

FML

No mood.

Reason that I dunno

Oh no, is 2011

looking forward

What a big joke?

Future

Friends

Where you go?

@.@

Leaving

+U

Give me your heart

I hate you

Hate you

After one week

Surprise

If

071110

25years old

HuHuHu

Coffee without sugar

Alone

Lalala

Just a post

Deng

So emo!

Feeling fault

Record for this special moment

Alone.

1501210

Settle and fine now!

Haiz~

Pain

Tata

Raining day

Happy Halloween

No title

Dream

Just like you without a reason

Holiday

Oh No=(

Mamak

999

Just to remind myself

8pm now.

Who am I in ur heart?

Zzz

The Feeling make me sick.

Totally Disappointed

You in my mind

Will you be the next?

Swt 99

Miracle

You are not alone

June

Zzz

Game Over

Erm.... No reason..

Just 4 month

Games

Today is a 1st day

I just miss Xx

Just a record....

Countdown for the Christmas

Life

So what!!!

Happy Sem 3